In heart, yes, we are

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Dear Beautiful,

I can feel my heart pounding in my chest

It's been less then a day, and knowing how far you are from me, and how unable I am to care for you as I want to right now

I feel torn apart away from your side where I know I need to, have to, be..

Why does it have to be like this?

Why can't the clouds part and allow you home?

Why can't the distance end it's painful impact and allow you and I to find some way to see one another so much more often?

You are my breath, my life, the reason my heart beats

I mean that..

...

Already after hearing your voice, just now, and knowing that finally your plane will be allowed off the ground gives me greater peace

In you there's something I've never found before in my own life..

That is, that for the first time, I care for someone as if I was right there with them, feeling their joy, their pain..

It must be because our hearts are not two anymore, but one

When I talked with you up on that mountain

And for that brief span of time I saw you in that wedding gown, marrying me, taking on my last time and returning home with me for forever..

I understood

Yes being married to someone is something official, something standard and set, something which wonderfully changes the path of your life... combining it with another's

Yet in heart, you and I have been married for so much longer already

Our hearts have both committed to one another eternal love, unending care, laughter, friendship, and adoration, for the rest of our lives

Just thinking about this makes me smile...

I can tell this every time I look deeply into your eyes and see pure, beautiful love staring back at me

Yes your name, it stands for pure...and I know without a doubt that you give the purest of loves anyone could ever offer

It's not tainted by envy, ego..or dirtied by outside motives or passions

It's essence lies in a care that is so completely unselfish, that I am often overwhelmed at how one girl, can be so beautifully angelic in her words and actions of love

No, darling, you give to me the purest love I do not deserve..yet somehow, your loving eyes found me

I know my eyes will never be able to look away

...I love you so, so very much

Being away from you is like walking in a room without light

Yet the candle of our memories, the sparkling glimmers of your letters and calls, and the beautiful sunlight of the knowledge of our marriage at heart

It illuminates my darkness when I am away from you

You shine so bright, darling

I meant that when I sung it to you on that small album

Until that day when you actually are in that beautiful, long white dress, and I in my shiny black shoes and neatly pressed tuxedo, just know..

My heart has already made its choice for all time

And it's you, darling...

:]

Forever Yours

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