Just a breath

--

Dear Beautiful,

Do you know how cute you are as you start to fall asleep?

Snugging close to you, and hearing your breathing grow longer, and softer, as you fall asleep, is something that even further endeared you to my heart

Even as you sleep...you are something so perfect to me

My heart aches to have only one of those moments back when you were in my arms, resting..

The rest of the world could have been timeless in those moments

We had nowhere to go, no one to see, just those soft still moments to spend together

It seems as if every second I spent with you is so precious to me now....now that you're gone

I just want you back...

I just want to hear you speak my name into my ear -- in that loving way that touches my heart like nothing ever had before

It feels cold here now...the warmth of your love being so far away

I know the day is coming when I can cradle you in my arms every night -- catering to every need of your heart

Wishing you goodnights and goodmornings...never ever forgetting how special they are, because I know how much I miss them when you're gone...

Hasten the day a plane takes off to bring us together again

I know I'll be counting down every moment until then...

I miss you

and I love you so much

Forever Yours

--

If this moment could sing..

--

Dear Beautiful,

You are on my mind yet again

As always when those soft blurred images of your smiling face cross my memory, I find my own smile being drawn across my lips

Every day that image seems to get more blurred as our time spent together drifts further back into the processes of my memory

I just don't want to lose that image of you I hold so preciously

I don't want our time apart to extend so far that my recollection of your eyes looking into mine becomes indistinguishable from the rest of my thoughts

Do you know that beyond everything else I've ever known, your smile is the one thing that brings me the greatest joy?

It's true

I feel as if the moments I think of your smile could voice themselves in some song -- that their sonnet would be the most overwhelmingly beautiful sound to ever be heard

Like the sun pushing away the low, dark rain clouds to illuminate every part of one's vision

I guess this is all part of being completely in love

It's certainly something I'd never ever want to lose...nothing could be better then this love

I just miss you so much...

You have penetrated the deepest depths of my heart -- and it's there I want to keep you forever

I love you so much darling...and it makes me so happy to know how much you love me too

:]

Forever Yours

--

How the lonely stars sparkle

--

Dear Beautiful,

The quiet of a night spent alone can be so beautiful and yet so sad

The heavens look so lonely tonight, dotted by the shimmering glimmer of the moon and the tiny sparkles of the stars

Until now, I had never known the meaning of a perfectly blissful night

To have felt you snuggle up close to me -- feeling the warmth of your kiss upon my lips

To have spent seconds seeming like hours staring into your sparkling green eyes... that no set of stars could ever compare to

To pull your hand into mine and place my thumb securely into your palm -- watching you smile at me

This absence from your side is tearing me apart

I can can feel my heart burning away inside my chest--this fire that steals away bits and pieces of me until I can be made whole again

I'm sorry for being so wordy about how I feel...

I can't explain the depth of how much it hurts until I'm alone at night

When that time of the night comes along when couples rest together at night, their hearts and bodies united with just one another, and as I sit here alone...I just long for that moment when you and I won't have to leave one another again

I long for that moment when no more planes will fly away into the deep blue sky taking one of us away from the other

I long for that moment when I'll return home to you, to hold you and tell you how much I love you

Until then, my heart will remain shattered

..barely holding itself together with every memory we have together

I love you so very much my darling

Tonight, as always..I'm holding you closely in my thoughts

Forever Yours

--

Without you here, it's harder to breathe

--

Dear Beautiful,

I miss you

It's simple, true -- beyond a doubt heartfelt

Knowing your presence in my life was the catalyst to such amazing joy, in knowing what life should be like...with you...

You and me, together

I have found an emptiness on returning home, a dull joylessness without your smile to brighten my life

I've been asking God to continue to give me the strength to pursue my dreams -- to make purposeful this time away from your side

For, your side is where I need to be

There's no sense in hiding that desire in my heart anymore

Perhaps when we first met -- the time we spent in watching and waiting with one another, hoping for the other to let it slip about how much they cared

Now though..you know my heart

You know I am continually thinking about the day I can propose to you

Get married to you

Grow old with you

For, you are so completely lovely to me

There was not one moment when I was with you that I thought otherwise

Now as I am away from you, I can feel my chest tightening every time I think about being next to you again

I long for it -- I wait for it

I will hold you closely in my thoughts and prayers until the day I can hold you in my arms again

I love you so very much darling

I promise you I always will

Forever Yours

--

Missing you so...

--

Dear Beautiful,

I sure do love seeing you at nights

Seeing the slight, beautiful curves of your smile as you smile at something we talk about

Watching your beautiful eyes, and imagining them looking deep into mine

I miss you so, very much...

Having you away from me, so far takes its toll daily

I want to be there with you to rub your shoulders when you're stressed, to give a kiss to your neck to see your cute smile in person...

I want to be able to go on drives with you, to hold your hand, to do our bible study while watching the sun glide gently down the sky

I know I've said how much I miss you so many times already, and how truly it is embedded in my heart

I know these feelings won't dissipate until I have you again in my arms again

Know that you truly are always on my mind..

You are the purpose of my prayers as I walk to and fro from place to place

You are my dreams, both asleep and awake

You are my sunshine, my sunset, my beauty in everything

Just know..

I love you, darling

I always always will

:]

Forever Yours

--

November Twenty

--

Dear Beautiful,

My thoughts being set on you seem to be a permanent thing now..

Ever since November 20, 2007, my heart, my mind, my soul, all seemed to have found life in the life of another, in you...

Every second that passes brings me closer to you

Every second since that chilly night in November

Without realizing it then, November 20 started a huge countdown in my life

A countdown that will outlast week and weekend visits between Missouri, Virginia, and New Jersey

A countdown that will outlast daily phone calls, love letters, and packages sent back and forth

A countdown that will outlast the beauty of a silver ring on your finger, the pictures taken of you and I, so very much in love and attached to one another

This countdown will keep ticking, keep winding down, until one very special moment

Its final seconds of its existence will lie in the moment when my eyes watch you, dressed in the most beautiful white gown, as you walk towards me down that aisle

What a beautiful end to that countdown we will have...

I treasure each and every one of these moments darling, even though we are so far away

I know so deeply down in my heart that every second I live through, brings me one second closer to the day when I take your hand in mine, in front of our closest friends and family, and kiss your lips...not just as my girlfriend, but as my most beautiful and lovely wife

I treasure these moments, sweetheart

I will treasure ever moment from November 20, till the end of my life

Why?

Because your smile permeates my life now

And it forever will

I couldn't be happier

:]

I love you so very, very much

Forever Yours

--

Come spend a life with me..

--

Dear Beautiful,

Can you feel my love across the miles?

I want you to feel every inch of it..every second

I want you to be able to turn your head from the whirlwind of your day and find my love waiting...

Always patient

Always kind

Never boastful

Never proud

Never angry

Always protecting

Always trusting

Always preserving

Always hoping

Hope..my love seems to rest on that as much as anything else

Hope for the tomorrow when I have you back in my arms

Hope for the days when I can see the world with my love by my side


Will you come spend your life with me?

Will you trust yourself to the love in my embrace every night, while the rest of the world falls asleep?

Will you lay on the grass with me and look up at the clouds, finding your peace by my side?


I want to be with you with every bit of my being, darling

Know that the movie reel for rest of my life has already been played before my eyes

And as I watch our lives plan out, hand in hand

I understand how truly beautiful a life with you will always be

I love you, I always will

:]

Forever Yours

--

When you say love..

--

Dear Beautiful,

You sweet voice permeates my dreams, from those I encounter while I sleep, and when I am awake

Last night I dreamed I was defending you from some nameless face -- I remember just the sight of your face even in my dreams, and how dearly I wanted to see that smile cross your lips

Without you here, I am lost, without a guide, or a light to shine my way..

I remain in the knowledge of our future, in time, we will not be separate

But until then, this separation proves to be the hardest time in my life away from someone I have ever had

When you say speak your words of love over the phone, my day comes so clearly in focus

I seems like suddenly every weight I have been feeling, every pang of confusion or discontent finds its rightful end

When you say love, I feel a beauty restore itself upon my chest, a lightness on my shoulders

Of course, with your voice, my heart finds its peace again

How could it not..

You only have the sweetest most caring voice I've ever heard

You mean everything to me

When I hear you, and feel your voice pressed up against my ear, every piece of my broken world finds its match again

Although when you are gone..and I again fall into the knowledge of your presence missing in my life

I feel so tired...

Truly, you are the wind beneath my wings

My strength in the storm and in the sunny day

My smile till I walk down that path at the end of my life

You are my everything

And all I know for sure..

Is that I love you with all of my heart

And I know I want to take care of you, my most special and beautiful girl, for the rest of your life

Forever Yours

--

Passing Moments..

--

Dear Beautiful,

Some of what I am seemingly shifts in small ways as I swiftly move across state boarders

Friendships, places, thoughts, they all change just a bit as I move back into the only place I used to know as home

My heart, yet, avoids this changing ideal as it holds onto a stronger, more important thing


As I crossed over Virginia, West Virginia, Maryland, Pennsylvania, New Jersey -- things changed

The leaves became a deeper shade of green, the accents of those I met became less and less laid back, and sharper, faster

The roads became smoother, more well defined by the larger numbers of cars that passed over them daily

As all these things changed, I thought about the differences


But even more-so, those similarities

I realized how my love for you, my care for you, the beating of my heart for you, stayed the same mile by mile

The passing moments had no changing hold on that -- even if the rest of my world changed as it was flying by

As I go into places I've known since I was just a child, there's a new element in my speech, in my actions, and that's you

You have become a name continually on my lips -- I simply love to tell people about how special you are to me

You have become a thought continually in my plans -- I spend my day thinking about the next time I'll hear your lovely voice, or the next time I'll be able to make fun plans with you about all the things we want to do..together

Into these old places I have seemingly known for years and years, they seem different, infused with greater purpose, simply because your name has penetrated my life so wonderfully

It's amazing to look at my life here, and see how beautifully it's changed since I used to live here permanently

Because of you..

Because of you.....

You are perfect beauty in my life

And I sure do love you! With all, all..of my heart

Forever Yours

--

In heart, yes, we are

--

Dear Beautiful,

I can feel my heart pounding in my chest

It's been less then a day, and knowing how far you are from me, and how unable I am to care for you as I want to right now

I feel torn apart away from your side where I know I need to, have to, be..

Why does it have to be like this?

Why can't the clouds part and allow you home?

Why can't the distance end it's painful impact and allow you and I to find some way to see one another so much more often?

You are my breath, my life, the reason my heart beats

I mean that..

...

Already after hearing your voice, just now, and knowing that finally your plane will be allowed off the ground gives me greater peace

In you there's something I've never found before in my own life..

That is, that for the first time, I care for someone as if I was right there with them, feeling their joy, their pain..

It must be because our hearts are not two anymore, but one

When I talked with you up on that mountain

And for that brief span of time I saw you in that wedding gown, marrying me, taking on my last time and returning home with me for forever..

I understood

Yes being married to someone is something official, something standard and set, something which wonderfully changes the path of your life... combining it with another's

Yet in heart, you and I have been married for so much longer already

Our hearts have both committed to one another eternal love, unending care, laughter, friendship, and adoration, for the rest of our lives

Just thinking about this makes me smile...

I can tell this every time I look deeply into your eyes and see pure, beautiful love staring back at me

Yes your name, it stands for pure...and I know without a doubt that you give the purest of loves anyone could ever offer

It's not tainted by envy, ego..or dirtied by outside motives or passions

It's essence lies in a care that is so completely unselfish, that I am often overwhelmed at how one girl, can be so beautifully angelic in her words and actions of love

No, darling, you give to me the purest love I do not deserve..yet somehow, your loving eyes found me

I know my eyes will never be able to look away

...I love you so, so very much

Being away from you is like walking in a room without light

Yet the candle of our memories, the sparkling glimmers of your letters and calls, and the beautiful sunlight of the knowledge of our marriage at heart

It illuminates my darkness when I am away from you

You shine so bright, darling

I meant that when I sung it to you on that small album

Until that day when you actually are in that beautiful, long white dress, and I in my shiny black shoes and neatly pressed tuxedo, just know..

My heart has already made its choice for all time

And it's you, darling...

:]

Forever Yours

--

Care

--

Dear Beautiful,

Here I am

Unashamed, unabashed, yours -- only and forever

Let me care for your heart?

Allow me the chance to love you with all I have to give?

Trust in me..

Dream with me..

The only thing I could ever want would be to care for you as you are meant to be cared for

You are beyond just someone special -- your maker designed you with such beautiful love

I can see it!

I want to be the one to care for you with all the love you deserve

Please, let me know when life gets too hard

Or the stings or pangs from broken parts of your past start hurting

May I be the one to bind up your wounds, to care for you with every art of my being, to nurse you back to heath by overwhelming love and dedication

This is all I could want sweetheart, for this care of mine to be all yours for all your life

I know, I know I know how blessed I am to know such an angel so personally

To be the one you can run to when the storms get too hard to bear

Know that with all that I am, I am yours -- truly all all of me

I care for you with all of my heart

And someday, when I slide that lovely silver ring down your finger -- it'll finally be that special moment when the rest of the world knows just as I do -- that my love for you, truly has no end, and never will

:]

Forever Yours

--

Fall Asleep In My Arms..

--

Dear Beautiful,

The quiet of a night without you never seems right

It's dull, lifeless -- only until I hear that ever sweet voice across the phone miles

Do you know when I hear you tell me you love me, that every part of my life gets whisked away?

Suddenly I'm no longer by myself in this empty room, but hundreds of miles away there with you laying next to me

There's enough light in the room to cast a glow around your face, and I tuck my arms around you, holding you closely to me

I know when your voice is actually here with me and not so far away, these dreams will finally find their peace in your presence

I know someday, beyond this year, when you can fall asleep in my arms every night -- my heart will finally be content and at peace -- you completely totally and wholeheartedly

I want to go to sleep with you

I want to wake up with you

I want to catch the sunny days with you

I want trace the rain across our windows with you

I want to see every part of the rest of my life with you there right next to me, watching together how God has opened His creation to our eyes

I know there's no one else who could see it the way I do, except for you

Truly, our relationship is in His hands, near or far

It always has been

Without His ever present guidance, there's no way I would have ever met you

And truly the thought of a life spent without you doesn't seem like a reality I'd ever want to be in

Darling, will you fall asleep in my arms?

Safe and protected..in my arms?

Loved and cared for...in my arms?

Every night?

For the rest of your life?

Because truly, nothing else could ever make me happier

I love you, I love you..I love you!

With all my heart

:]

Forever Yours

--

Laugher and Sunny Days

--

Dear Beautiful,

I see our wonderful relationship growing and blossoming every day

Like the spring flowers that come up after the long, cold winters

We seem to have more of a beautiful bond that keeps on getting better

It's not just that you and I have so much love for one another..

We have the same joys, the same passions, the same loves, the same, the same...the same.

I could honestly go on for a long time about everything we are!

So for now we'll make plans for disney world, italy, new york city...and everywhere else where dreams come true

Before we know it, we'll be making plans for chucky-cheese, tee ball games, and school trips

Soon after that, it'll be small dinner dates with senior citizen discounts, drives around town listening to our "classics", and visiting places like natural bridge, hand in hand, we remember from when we were younger..

You see darling, I intend to not spend just now with you, but to grow old with you

To have little Bible studies with the love of my life for a long, long time

To spend my sunny days laughing with you about corny puns and funny stories...all for the rest of my days

To kiss you goodnight and into sleep, every night for the rest of your life

There's no one else in this world who could make me feel so happy like you do, baby..

Hey...I love you!

I know I always, always will!

Forever Yours

--

What happened the very first time that I met you

--

Dear Beautiful,

Can you tell me what happened to me that first time we met?

I scarce am able to understand it myself

The first time I wrapped my arms around you when you walked in that hotel door in that quiet town in Illinois

The first time I had the chance steal a glance over at you riding in the passenger seat next to me

The first time we kissed, and my heart was finally convinced that the angel I had fallen so deeply in love with, had fallen for me too

I would never never be the same after that

Never would my eyes feel so bright and alive as they finally saw you -- you who had such mighty hands lovingly craft your every detail, your every feature

Every spark in your beautiful green eyes

Every ounce of love in your every smile

And that heart of yours...wow

The bible says that God searches our hearts and He knows them

I know something about my relationship with you, and that's that I am so very blessed to be yours..

God has certainly searched your heart, and He, like I, have found such love and care and beauty in it

The fact that He would bless me, with the love of your heart, is so, so very special...it means everything to me

So what happened to me the first time we met?

Well, darling..you changed my life

You completed my heart

And I met the one that I'm going to love and care for..not just for now, but for forever

I would want for nothing else

I love you with all my heart darling

I always will

:]

Forever Yours

--

The most..

--

Dear Beautiful,

Do you know how perfectly happy you make my heart?

Truly as it toils and struggles faster and faster, working towards daily goals that seem sometime without reward or end -- when I hear your voice, when I feel you near, my heart finds its perfect peace

It's because you are my heart

Without doubt or concern, I know how much you have taken my heart -- yes, it's not mine anymore, and truly I never want it back

The most amazing

Most lovely

Most caring

Most loving

Most joyful

Most wonderful

Most...perfect

To me, the most beautiful girl that has ever graced my path with her footsteps

You are all of these

I am continually amazed that you are mine

That God has looked down upon this lowly man and seen fit to place such an angel in his life

I will never, ever let go of you

Never stop caring...never stop loving

My darling, do you know how beautiful in every way you are to me?

Please always let me tell you...for every day, for the rest of your life

:]

I love you, with all my heart!

Forever Yours

--

The Sweetest

--

Dear Beautiful,

You, you..and you alone, are the sweetest!

Can I say that for the rest of my life?

Can I never stop watching over you? Watching your every smile and listening to your every laugh dance upon my ears?

I know I'm the guy that's found someone so wonderful he had missed out on all his life till now

I mean really, my heart has never felt like this!

Never felt so happy, so wonderful, so..right

Today when I told my friend that I was going to marry you, it seemed oh so natural

To know that the love of my life was far, yet still ever on my thoughts, and ever a part of my dreams, is such a real thing to me now

I see my present and my future with you..the sweetest, most loving, most beautiful girl in the whole world..

And that's you!

Gosh...to say I'm lucky just wouldn't cover it

Such a special person as you are...you have taken my heart and cared for it like no one ever has...knowing you, well darling, you've changed my life

And I never ever intend to be apart from your side...the sweetest, the most lovely girl...well, you!

So hey, will you be mine?

:]

Forever Yours

--

Moonlight and lovesongs are never out of date..

--

Dear Beautiful,

Perhaps it was the slight chill in the air

Perhaps it was the walk through a sun lit beautiful countryside to get to class..

Perhaps it was the flashing pictures across my computer screen..each one graced by your beautiful smile..

Perhaps..it was all of them combined, that made me miss you with all my being


I realized how much I missed the warmth of your touch

..the joy of your love as when we watched beautiful mountain ranges and distant running rivers..together

.....the perfection of your adorable smile as it glowed so beautifully just inches away from my lips


Truly even in this evening..it could only be my most perfect happiness to be able to sing you to sleep as the moon yawns and lays down to sleep

Things such as these, with you and I..will never, ever be out of date

Never too mushy..too loving

No, for us -- every bit of our love is beautiful

And that's just how it will be

For all, all time

:]

Forever Yours

--

Knowing the warmth of your care..

--

Dear Beautiful,

Even from so far away, you are the girl who makes this guy's heart sing..

Knowing your care for me is enough to pull me along, and help me bear every little one of life's burdens that weighs heavy

Do you realize how much you truly do for me?

I could only hope to care for you in every way you deserve to be cared for..because seemingly, you know everything about making my heart so very happy...

Darling, through the miles of fields and forest and highway that take up space between our two lives, our hearts seem to have met and held fast to one another, even though the rest of our lives are still distant

But only for now...

I know for a fact that distance can't bind us for forever, and by the beauty of our love for one another, our end is secure

Together, Forever, and Ever and Ever, Amen

When the day comes that I can slide that ring on your finger, and grasp your hand in mine .. that'll be the moment I'll know for sure the beauty of the rest of my life

With you, Katie Nichole Martin, I just can't stop smiling at how wonderful everything is

You're the one who does this to me

You're the one who always will be my smile

You're the one...You're the one, You're the one!

I know so

So get ready for a lifetime of cooking dinner together, going on random roadtrips to places we've never seen, watching movies that make us laugh and feel happy at the same time..and when the lights dim, and it's just you and me, I'll hold you tightly in my arms as we drift off to sleep

Truly darling, all we are...is so special now, and always, always will be

:]

Forever Yours

--

In the silence of a gentle evening..

--

Dear Beautiful,

What is "somewhere" if your heart isn't there too..

Once the whirl of my day winds down, and I notice how empty my room is, how empty car rides seem back and forth to places I have no desire to be, how empty my heart feels without the one and only person to ever fill it..

Without you, I feel lost and confused

It's not this place, it's not the places I've lived in, nor the places I've visited..

It's me

You have so quickly become the light to my eyes, that without your glimmer, I fear they cease to see true beauty in all they gaze upon...

Here in this quiet place, I feel more alone then I ever have

I know over time I'll again adjust to your absence..and be "ok" in waiting once again for a moment to see your sweet face

But for now, for tonight, the rest of me waits to see you here again

Sweetheart, I will always wait, patiently, joyfully, until I can hold you in my arms again

Until I can kiss your lips and wish you into dream filled sleep..I will wait

How much I love you can't be measured...how much I care can't be contained

I always will, my lovely Katie -- for the rest of my life

I am yours

I am yours

I am yours...

Forever

--

Holding Fast

--

Dear Beautiful,

Waiting, I will wait

No matter what path your beautiful life takes you on, I'll be waiting, watching, for that moment when it leads you back into my arms

I know how hard distance can be..I never knew before now

I never realized how deeply one's heart can be torn -- between the place where it physically resides, and the place where it wants to be..

Darling, my heart will be with you always, even if for a time the rest of me is not

I will be holding fast -- holding onto every thought of you, every moment I can remember when we were together, every one..

Truly such love has never existed in my heart before, never such attachment, never such dedication

I could have never expected an angel to walk into my life and change every thing into such color..like the first few days of spring, when you can tell true beauty is beginning to span across your vision

You did, sweetheart

You changed my life so perfectly

What I thought I knew about me, my heart, and where my heart found its peace..all changed

And I will always, always hold you tightly in my heart because of it

Every part of you is so very special to me .. I know you are the one I want to give all my care to for the rest of my life

You..you who are so special, so lovely in every way .. you whose heart I have fallen so hard for

Sweetie, I always want you to know..

I love you so very much

Forever Yours

--

I'll never stop loving you...never

--

Dear Beautiful,

Through talk of a beautiful future..

Through talk of dreams, of desires, of an amazingly purposeful life, for His kingdom

I am in awe

I am in awe God chose me to bless with your wonderful heart..

To know personally all the beauty His hand can place into someone -- my dear, you have it

I'll never stop loving you..I know it

I see in us a life lived not just for this earth, for the dirt that sifts under our feet, but for the love of a Savior who's grace is so very needed to so many a heart..

I know how very special our time will be together..

So special that every moment will filling my heart with such ever present love for you -- yes my darling, you inspire me in love I've truly never experiened before..

When we laugh together, sing together, pray together, or even just sit quietly together..every moment will be held special to me

Darling with all the time we have left in our lives together, I know my heart will be soothed and put at peace by being in such a beautiful place

Sweetheart..I love you, with all my heart -- I always, always will

:]

Forever Yours

--

Through days, through nights..

--

Dear Beautiful,

It's not just those ever perfect times when I could look into your beautiful eyes..

See your perfectly adorable grin that makes me smile on, and on..

Not just those moments when I can run my hand across your cheek and look at how beautifully sweet my wonderful Katie can be

Truly, every one of those moments is special

But even when I noticed that you want to name a cat Tomkins, and a dog Wally Wallafred

When I hear your laugh across the smile as we jabber on and on about elephants with pants, or ridiculous tv shows, or our own antics throughout the day in reference too everyone who sees us..

When these little but special things to me make me realize that our love is based on so much more then just, affections, or mutual care..

Beyond every bit of that, my days, and my nights with you, are spent in perfect happiness at all, we are

When I can think about you, and realize that truly, I am the man in every disney movie I've ever watched, who has been lucky enough to meet the princess, and have her love him with her whole heart..

Sweetheart, you are my princess..you will be for all and every moment of the rest of my life

You may not have a crown, or a crystal slipper, or a beautiful gown for every moment of your every step..

But your smile is that of someone so utterally beautiful that when you smile, the rest of the world smiles with you

You see life with eyes of love -- that when you gaze on the world around you, you see the perfect hand of your ever watchful Father..

Every part of you is truly as a princess is -- beautiful, graceful, and oh so loving

I love you so, so very much darling

You are the light of my eyes, the sunshine of my day, and the star of my sky

Forever and ever

I will always, always be yours

:]

Forever Yours

--

You shine so bright, darling..

--

Dear Beautiful,

Today is our very first valentine's day together

It means so very much to me!

When I couldn't sleep last night -- as I paced back and forth, tossed and turn, unable to find a place of rest..

The thought of your smile gave me hope

In the darkest room, alone and by myself, you still were my shining star through it all...

Knowing I had someone who was praying for me, caring for me, so completely loving towards me -- it gave me hope

Knowing my own desire to spend every hour, every minute, every breath with you, for the rest of my life, gave life to my prayer through those quiet moments

Truly, sweetheart, you weren't even here with me, and yet I could still feel your care all the way across the miles

I can tell so quickly, so beautifully, how much I'll look forward to every Valentine's Day from now on

One's spend there in your presence, where I can wrap my arms around you and tell you how much I, care for you

How much I love you

It's because I always will, forever and ever

You shine so bright for me -- and you're someone I'm going to care for, to love, for the rest of my life

:]

Hey...I love you!!

Forever Yours

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My heart..

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Dear Beautiful,

Oh how I miss you

Words can't express it

Really, they can't

I seem to have been unable to find words the entire day -- going from one happy moment of thinking about you, to the next disheartening moment of realizing you aren't here anymore

I do love you, with all my heart

It's the reason my chest tugs and pulls when I realize I'm not with you -- the reason my heart hasn't been able to find happiness in any part of my day

Not being able to see that beautiful smile, hold you in my arms, or just be present with you has left an empty feeling my heart has never felt before

Never have I loved someone so much

Never have I missed someone so much

Just know that I love you..so, so very much

My only joy comes from knowing I will spend the rest of my life with you -- every moment

I miss you so, so so so much sweetheart

And I love you with my whole heart

Forever Yours

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Today

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Dear Beautiful,

No more distance, no more a thousand miles, or 750 miles, in fact, today, tonight, we'll be together again

There is nothing which can contain how absolutely happy I am

I know when I wake up in the morning I'll be just as excited as I am now

Knowing that truly the most beautiful girl I've ever met is coming to see me..

That her attentions have looked on me as someone special to her

That you, you who are so special to me, you...will finally be back in my arms

Well, it makes my heart skip a whole lotta beats

God has been so very faithful to us, in bringing us together, in cultivating a love so strong it gets only stronger even though we are distant -- truly you and I are meant to me

Before you know it, it won't be a plane ride separating us anymore, but a car trip, made every night..to give my most beautiful wife a kiss on the lips and a "I love you" -- for the rest of my life

But until then

We have tonight

Gosh, i can't wait to see you

:] :] :]

Forever Yours

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Knowing you're this close..

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Dear Beautiful,

There isn't much time left now till you and I are reunited again..

The space which separates us can't hold us any longer

Watch it disappear in just under two days

Can you believe it?

I most certainly haven’t been this excited for something in a long, long time

The girl of my dreams, the most beautiful, special girl, to ever come into my life, is coming to see me

Gosh...the amazingness of just everything completely awes me

First, you, the most special girl I have ever met, chose me -- I'll never get over that

And now, I'm going to be able to spend that treasured, amazing time with you

Every moment of it will be so very precious to me

Darling I know these bits and pieces of our lives we've been able to spend together are only precursors

Before you know it, we'll be looking back on these days -- to the time when we were "kids", still completely in love just as always

We'll look back -- 10, 20, 50 years into the future

Just as in love as we are know

Hey..

I love you

Forever Yours

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There is no one else for me..

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Dear Beautiful,

Do you see in yourself what I see in you?

I would hope everyone would..

When I look at you, I don't just see someone beautiful, formed by the hand of the most masterful artist to ever convey his work upon humanity..

I see so much more then that

I see happiness dance in your adorable green eyes

I see your smile -- filled with more then just mere joy -- a show of all your care, love, beauty

It may just be romantic words, but I see your heart

It's certainly bigger then most -- far deeper and more vast then any other normal heart I've ever met

I am amazed it looks upon me as something special to it

You, darling, I see in you more then just a lovely young woman who has already used her life for the care of others

I see His light in you

I see His mission in you, His purpose

It graces you from the tips of your toes to the crown of your head

Can I always be a part of your beautiful life?

That's all I could ever want

I love you, my darling beautiful katie

:]

Forever Yours

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Your care is so very special to me..

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Dear Beautiful,

When you tell me that you were thinking about me, worrying about me, it's something I take very close to heart

My life has been filled with wonderful friends, loving family, just everything that God has blessed me with..

But when I hear that someone I love with my whole heart truly worries that I'm ok, that everything is well with me, that is so, so very special about me

I know you are the one, that I love you with my whole heart, and when I know i'm on your heart too, it just speaks wonders to me

I love you so very much my ever sweet ever loving Katie

Please know that even in our distance your name is written across my heart

We're only three days now darling -- three days till I can hold you in my arms again

Three days till we can sit and watch the emperor's new groove, together!

Three days till finally everything in my life makes sense again -- all because in my heart I'll know that the one I love is with me again

Your absence has been hard -- not having you here with me

But I know it has only deepened in me my love for you

Deepened that knowledge that as long as it takes, you are the one I want to care for

You are the one I want to take care of -- for the rest of my life

I love you

:]

Forever Yours

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Truly knowing, truly loving..

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Dear Beautiful,

I am the type now to truly know that I am truly be in love -- such a thing that I have never truly known before..

Ask my friends, my family, anyone close to me

They'll tell you

They tell me how they know how deeply I care for you, and how my thoughts and my words continually seem to dwell on you

In the best way, I have finally found you

Finally found the one that I know I want by my side for the rest of my life

To go somewhere to look at God's creation, or somewhere to buy a swell sounding kazoo, or somewhere to watch the emperor's new groove...disney world, europe, our very own house - yes, I want every part of that life -- you and me

I know God has brought together two hearts just set for one another..in His will, in His plan

My darling Katie -- you should know, I am so very much in love with you

I know I will be for the rest of my days -- throughout sunrise and sunset -- through sunny day and storm -- you and I will remain..together

I love you

:]

Forever Yours

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Beyond just blessed..

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Dear Beautiful,

I am beyond just blessed by having you in my life

Beyond just a lucky guy, who's found a nice girl, and finds that it fits his life

No, in fact I have met the most beautiful, most sweetest, loving young woman I could ever have met

I can't ever stand to hear you tell me that you're overly attached, or damaged, or clingly..

Please, don't ever believe that about yourself

Katie you mean the world to me -- and you do so because your every step, your every word, your every smile, is so very lovely to me

Nothing will ever change that

I'd give up everything worldly I have would it just be to spend the rest of my life in your arms

Nothing you could ever say, or ever do, would ever make me want to leave your side

I want that as my role for the rest of my life -- the one who has the chance to be the one close to your heart

Truly darling, I am beyond just blessed

I am completely in awe at how someone so beautiful cares for me..

And just so you know..

I love you with all my heart

Forever Yours

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For the days we will spend..

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Dear Beautiful,

Less then a week

Those words ring in my ears with such a wonderful sound

Just the fact that now, it's real -- no more wondering back and forth if you're actually coming -- I know you actually are

Yes darling, I know it's only for four days -- yet those four days will be to be as 4 years -- that's how truly special they will be

I know that for that several hours I spend with you last time, they lasted in my memory till now -- as something so very special

I think about them as I drive home along lonely roads, and I start smiling

My mind wanders off to them at breakfast, or before I go to bed..and for a minute or two, I'm somewhere else, there with you again

For those days we have so soon -- they're going to be such a treasure to me

As you are -- darling allow me to care for you, to make you smile, to feel at peace and beyond pain or hurt

I want to be that -- always I do

For the four days that we will have, I know I will love and treasure every second of it

Even if we aren't saying anything -- if words fail, and the only thing left is your head on my shoulder

That's all I could ever want sweetie..you, all of you, for the rest of my life

I love you

:]

Forever Yours

--

Could I sing you to sleep?

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Dear Beautiful,

Some people spend their whole life looking for someone who will best understand them

Someone who knows them so well, down to the differences in how they smile, or laugh, or walk around day to day

If you were to tell someone seeking this, that somehow, this would be able to happen with someone living 15 hours away

They wouldn't understand -- they couldn't

But look at what God has done in our lives together

Intertwined, and distant, these past two months have taught me how deeply you care for me

For but what are miles -- only something feet have trouble crossing -- but not hearts

My care for you has become so deep in my heart that all I think about is the times when I can care for your every need

To be the one who understands your every action, and knows exactly what to do to keep you safe and warm when the storms come

To sing you to sleep, to hold you in my arms as the one you can tell anything to, to pray for you when you are far from me, to pray with you when you are close..

My deepest desire is to care for you

Truly darling, you mean so very much to me

I know that in 8 days, almost 7, I'll be able to finally care and love you like I've wanted to for so long

And even though it'll be a short time frame, just like that 2-3 hours with you in that rainy city of Saint Louis, I know I'll treasure every moment of it for the rest of my life

My sweetest, most beautiful katie, I love you -- with my whole heart

And I intend to for the rest of my life

Forever Yours

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Sunshine on a sunny day

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Dear Beautiful,

It couldn't have been more perfect

I had the most beautiful day here -- my drive to school was slow and easy, going past grove after grove of sun lit woods

The clouds chose not to cover over the sun, but rather rest around it from their daily flight across the sky

I had hoped, I had dreamed, and finally when I heard your voice over that phone as I drove along, I just smiled

It was already beautiful, yet knowing that so soon I would be able to see you -- truly the most beautiful thing in my life, well...it made me absolutely overjoyed.

You were my sunshine on a sunny day, darling

Just as you have been my sunshine on the days that stormed, or poured down rain, or snowed..

Could I have ever dreamed that suddenly I would know I was seeing you, being back with you, being able to hold you in my arms?

I did, I have, and now, it's finally coming true

Darling it only proves to be again that distance cannot bind us, cannot stop us, and will never be able to keep us apart for forever

When I say I am forever yours, I mean it

For now, for 8 days from now, for 8 years from now, for the rest of my life

I love you

Forever Yours

--

Until we're walking down the aisle..

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Dear Beautiful,

I am so very much in love with you

When I reflect on everything we are, I become the happiest most joy filled guy around

My friends see it

Already they know when they ask me about how you are, that they'll get an absolute ear full of excited comments, laughing about all the jokes we make, and a consistant flow of utter peace in the joy that I have knowing you

Darling you are so very special to me..

No matter what situation arises in my life, or falls down upon our laps, I want you to know that no matter what decision is made, it'll always be the decision that keeps a smile on your face

Well gosh that's certainly how I want it..

Yes I want to be the one who walks down the aisle hand in hand with my wife -- you --knowing that I get to spend the rest of my life telling you, "I love you," and how beautiful you are to me

Everything I do, I do for that moment

I so desire to get down on one knee before you and put a ring on your finger

To know that the most beautiful girl in the whole wide world is going to marry me

I know its not much, and it doesn't compare, but your worth goes beyond value

Knowing you care for me makes me the happiest guy on the face of the earth

Every day, that's how I want it too

I love you

Forever Yours

--

Sweetheart...

--

Dear Beautiful,

If I could look into future, there's only one image I'd like to see...

That would be your adorable face tucked down on my neck, as we sit somewhere in our very own house, in our very own room -- at the end of the day, just in one anothers arms...

I can see our days being filled with everything we've ever wanted to do, and not just for us, but for others, for those who truly desire to know the love of Christ in their hearts

My sweetheart and I -- able to spend our days together -- in the most beautiful joy a couple could have

I want to see you picking up the phone during the middle of the day, and hearing my voice on the other end of the line telling you how much I love you..

I want to start next to you in church, taking a minute away from my own singing just to look over at you and see my lovely katie singing with her beautiful voice to her creator

I want to see us, 50 years in the future, watching a sunset go down as we sit, hand in hand, completely as one anothers

Do I dream too much for you sweetheart?

I don't think so..I think you feel the same way..

And yes, that makes me the happiest man on the face of the earth

Darling we have so much to look forward to

And because all that time, will be spent with you..

I will adore every moment of it

Forever Yours

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What we are..

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Dear Beautiful,

In the eyes of those who see us, we are something of an enigma

750 miles away -- circumstances which bar us from spending time together -- different schools, different times for breaks and vacations

Yet, our relationship and love for one another just gets deeper

I am overwhelmed by the thought that I met the most special and beautiful girl -- completely filled with the hand of my creator -- and she, you..are in love with me

What we are is something that is strong

When I first talked with you about relationships, I can easily remember how we talked about a three fold cord that can't be broken

How little did I know that within two months, my heart would be strugging for its own kind of air, you, so far away, and that our cord would be put to the test

How little could I know that it would be pulled and bent in every attempt to dash us apart

But my darling, you, me, and by having God in our relationship, we're not going to get broken

Instead by all that pulling, I know I've only fallen ever more in love with you -- so much deeper, so much greater

What we are is something that is beautiful

I can care for you with every bit of my heart, and know that you care just as deeply for me...

Darling, I love you

I want to tell you that day and night for the rest of your life

I want to be able to kiss your cheek and make you feel better whenever you are sad

I know, that through this fire, it brings me ever closer to the most beautiful and lovely girl my eyes have ever looked upon

For that, for you, I would walk through any path, any hardship, any trial, to wind up as yours in the end

In God's hands -- I know, in time, you'll be in my arms for the rest of my life -- with no more distance ever to separate us

:]

Forever Yours

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Through every moment..

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Dear Beautiful,

I want you to know, flat out -- right now..

I will always love and care for you.. always

These are not words which I could ever throw around lightly when it comes to you...

You are the one to make me smile, to be the sunshine in my life -- yes, everything about you I adore

It's more then just some simple thing which I could "let go" of if things got difficult..

Darling every single thing that could ever work to keep us apart would mean nothing to me -- just knowing you love me, is enough to keep me going on and on through anything just to be yours

Those three words do more then just make my heart jump, or make me tingle with joy -- they are the words which give me the strenght to carry on

Knowing of your love and care for me continually makes me realize that I would endure anything for your sake..

Through every moment, my love would never fall, or cease, or give up

It's not my desire to get married and have kids and live a happy life..

Rather --

It's my desire to marry you -- be the dad to your children -- live out the rest of my days happily with you, loving and caring for you until the end of our lives

Simply falling in love and getting married isn't an option any more

My heart has already made its choice, and it's only you I want to love for the rest of my life

In God's hands as it is, our relationship is beautiful

I...love....you -- only you

You are beautiful to me

I will always love you

It wouldn't matter however old you were, or far you were, or tired or happy or sad or frustrated or worn out..

No, I will always, always love you

I mean that darling, with my whole heart

Just like every other time, we're going to make it through this

My heart is there with you darling..and soon, before you know it..in the twinkling of an eye..

The rest of me will be too

Forever Yours

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The one for me..

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Dea Beautiful,

I am always here, seemingly every day, at that spot of being overwhelmed that you are mine

There are times when I read what you write to me, or listen to the deepest desires of your heart when you tell me of them, and I realize that if I could give all I had it would not be enough to equal all you mean to me

Truly, I'm amazed at the absolute depth of your care for me

When I used to think about who I might want to marry someday as a child, I could meander back and forth between thoughts of a girl who would know every single true desire of mine, every small little thing about me that is different from those around me..

As a dream is so fleeting and ends when the sun rises, so thoughts like these seemed to falter and fall away, as I most certainly "knew" that there would not be someone out there that could be that to me..

Do you know, I just know that you know the thoughts going through my head, the things I like the most -- and you care for them

I can't explain how you do it, but I just know when I talk to you and hear your voice in response to mine, my heart is calmed in the absolute knowledge of your love for me

You make me so very happy

And yes, you are the one for me...

I realize now that without you, I wouldn't be completely, I'd be missing so much from my heart -- it's because it's just not mine anymore, it's yours

God has blessed me enough to place in my life the most beautiful, caring, young woman a man could ever want

I still just wonder at how your most beautiful eyes see in me something special

I am forever yours, truly

My love for you has no end, no pause, and no regret

It'll be there till the end of my life, and anything you could ever want, ever need, I truly want to be that

Yes, I love you so very much my beautiful darling

I am,

Forever Yours

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21, 23

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Dear Beautiful,

Twenty One -- Twenty Three

As I looked at my blog tonight just before I started writing you, I noticed that these were the numbers that told me how many times I had written something about you over the past two months..

Yes, that's 44 completely different and special times I've found words in my heart to tell you about how much I adore you

It's completely honest when I say that there is no one that has ever made me feel like this..

No one who could ever keep my attention for hours and hours on the phone -- ranging on topics to elephants with pants, really "awesome" things, sleeping habits, and then of course my favorite, the time I get to tell you how much I love you..

There's no one ever who has made my heart leap in my chest every time I hear your sweet sweet voice, or see your picture, or read your beautifully loving words to me

Darling, you mean so very much to me..

I never could have known that God's hands had crafted and shaped such a beautiful girl, and that she would one day cast her eyes on me and find in me someone she loved..

I am so, so very blessed

Truly I contemplate the days between november 20th and now

I wonder at the fact that I could never understand how deeply in love I would fall, with someone so absolutely wonderful as you are

Yes, right now it's 21, 23

Yet I know deep down in my heart that by the end of my life, the letters and words of love I will have written and spoken to you will number in the thousands

I love you darling, I know I always will

Forever Yours

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For the sweetest girl in the whole world..

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Dear Beautiful,

There's no way I could string together words that could accurately be enough to describe how absolutely beautiful you are to me

I can't really describe the things I could do, or the places I would go, to be able to have you by my side for the rest of my life

You are truly, the sweetest girl in the whole wide world...

It's the reason I love to talk to you for hours on end, tell you I love you as many times as those words come together in my heart..

I miss you day and night -- through the most beautiful sunsets and the most lonely showers of rain, my heart aches to be there with you

When you told me today that you were going to be driving through rain and ice, my heart was so concerned with you making it safe and sound..

I wouldn't be able to bear the thought of being without you

Winding up 25 years down the road without you, the sweetest most loving girl I've ever met..

I see your note next to my computer, just a few inches in front of your picture, and I realize..

Living without you is just not an option for me

Seeing that adorable smile, that little heart you write next to your name, and knowing how much all your love is for me

It just sends my heart into the biggest flutter

I love you my darling, so very much

I know I'm going to love you for the rest of my life

I really can't wait for those times when we do have every moment together...

You and me, we're gonna make it to the very end, hand in hand

:]

Forever Yours

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When you say you love me..

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Dear Beautiful,

Your words to me are so sweet and absolutely perfect in every way

When you say you love me, my heart gives a flutter that its never, ever felt before..

Truly I love you just so very much that those words to my ear invokes in me an inexpressible joy

My heart beats faster, my own words on the tip of my tounge falter and fail, and I can do nothing but allow my heart to just be oh so very happy

Yes darling, those words from the lips of my most beautiful -- you -- they are beyond special to me

But, it's not only just those words..

Actually, it's so much more then just those words

In fact, it's all of you

You're able to express you love by caring for me, by feeling my hurts as well as my joys and sharing every one, by the things you write me and the things you send me, and even more beautiful, by your prayers for me..

Could I ever meet someone as special as you?

Honestly, it's impossibile

I could never ever imagine that someone so absolutely beautiful in every way existed

And more so then that, that someone like that would love me..

Yes, you are so very beautiful to me

And I love you, so, so very much

:]

Forever Yours

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I am completely amazed..

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Dear Beautiful,

Can I just say right now, that these last two months have been something so completely amazing to me?

I don't feel as if they've been two months

When the week of 11/16/07 started for me, time seemed to be passing normally

I was often struck with feelings of being alone, and the harshness of feeling like I was unable to ever meet the special girl for me

Then suddenly wednesday the 20th came along and my entire world changed

11/20/07 was the day I met the woman of my dreams -- beyond even dreams, the most beautiful and special girl that touched my heart like no one ever had

That was you, darling...

Since that day, it feels as if I've gotten to know you so very well

Every minute, second even, with you, has been so completely special

I've fallen in love with your every laugh, your every smile, you every word (banana!), and yes, the way you care for your Savior, your family, and yes even me

I adore you so very much my darling

Know how wonderfully you've impacted my heart..and yes,

I love you so very, very much!!

Forever Yours

--

Today

--

Dear Beautiful,

Today, today was the end of our countdown..

The end to each and every moment I spent pondering the time I'd have with you, saying goodnight to you, at this exact moment in time...

But darling even though I remain get far from your sweet smile, your loving touch...your presence is still perminantly incased in my heart

Yes, my love for you continues to grow with each and every passing minute, passing day

Every moment apart from you doesn't tear me apart, but rather, draws me closer and closer into you -- this angel that has somehow fallen in love with me

Darling I'm counting down the days until there's no more break in us -- no more distance -- no more overwhelming longing to be by your side

As today passes, and the day flies by with which I was nearly by your side...

I will continue to wait, minute for minute, hour for hour

Before you know it, I will be there with you in that airport

I'll throw my arms around you and hold you tightly in my embrace, leaning in to kiss your lips and never let go

Know that I love you, so very much

You are my everything -- forever!

Forever Yours

--

Every passing moment..

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Dear Beautiful,

Like watching the world fly by -- every moment some memory or time of my life flashing by as the minutes pass -- every one of those moments passing is a wonderful one to me because it brings me closer to you

Yes, I'll be the one to be your pillow when you're tired, to be your joy when you're sad, to be your encouragement when you're down, to be, to be, to be...

The things I want to be for you go on and on

Yes every one of these moments seem almost far from reality in that you're not here with me, seeming as you should be

My heart is there with you every moment, and the rest of me realizes that there's a big part of me, missing..

But in those moments, I will be patient

I will be patient through every moment that is hard, easy, beautiful, or tense

It seems as if every one of them gets grouped into one thing, and that's, "without you."

But darling, when those moments over, and the sun comes out again through these clouds that that we watching

It'll be you and me, forever, always, and I'll hold you in my arms until the end of my life

:]

Forever Yours

My darling

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Dear Beautiful,

I want you to know -- you're the most special person I've ever met

Beyond special, I've never truly been in love with someone before, with you, I already know I'd lay down my own life it it meant you would survive

I'd crack a thousand jokes, or bring you a million dandelons, if it meant a smile would once again light across your face

Please know that nothing will ever, ever change that

To have and hold you -- for better or worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and cherish, till death do us part

Yes darling, I already mean every word

Please, believe me when I say that I want to be the run to rub your head when you're tired, kiss your cheek when you're sad, carry you when you're sick, hold you tightly when you cry

These hard things are not meant to be taken on alone, and I want to be the one to help you through each and every one

It's not about you being happy all the time

Darling I love you with all I have even when you're sad....

I do love you so, so very much...

And I can't wait to spend every day of the rest of my life with you

:]

Forever Yours

--

For now, for forever..

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Dear Beautiful,

Oh what a path we're on

It's the most beautiful path -- surrounded by beautiful high trees -- rays of golden sunshine peeking down between each hanging arbor

Everywhere you turn is somewhere beautiful -- with fireflies at night and all sorts of ladybugs in the day time

Just for now, at this point, our path is parted, you on one side, me on the other

But don't worry darling, our paths do come back together again so very soon!

I say I love you, and I mean it, for now and for forever

I know our lives are so beautifully set apart and placed togetner and yes we are in God's hands

Do you know that yes you always make me smile? Day in and day out?

You talk about apologising for being frustrated -- darling you should know never to do that because when I'm frustrated, you take away every pang of confusion and hurt and replace it with the most beautiful joy

I love you so very much baby, and yes someday I will carry you away in my arms, and we'll be together in one another's embrace for the rest of our lives

I really can't wait for that

:]

Forever Yours

--

You're the girl of my dreams darling..

--

Dear Beautiful,

How you make my heart beat so much faster

My goodness, knowing there's someone that loves me so very much, and is so beautiful in every way, makes me just so very happy each and every moment

Yes, you're the girl of my dreams

I've never experienced such a beautiful heart such as yours -- I know I wanna be the one to find the ins and the outs of it for the rest of my life

To discover what makes you smile, what makes that heart of yours beat faster with happiness, yes that's what I want to spend a life time finding out

Truly I could never have imagined having someone as special as you are like me...

Knowing that you do, well, now a days I smile more then ever, I'm peaceful about things I face, people I talk to -- because there's always the reminder in the back of my head that by tonight I'll be able to talk to my beautiful baby...you!

Trust me darling, I want to be the one someday that runs with you out of a church, married, and off on our little adventures to disney world, and europe, and bill nye. Yes just you and me

No more distance

No more only telephone conversations

Yes, you'll be in my arms

And even as I do now, I'm going to love you with my whole heart, for the rest of my life...

Forever Yours

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Well gosh..

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Dear Beautiful,

Well gosh...did you know that your sweet adorable voice gets ever more familiar to me?

Every night I seem to be hooked on hearing it, telling me anything!

From english, to frisbee, to going to court for an effort to bring missouri and virginia together -- there's something about our talks that I know is really so very special

It's something which is so utterally beautiful and perfect that I know I want to be the one to talk to you for hours and hours for the rest of my life!

Yes -- I find in your everything I've ever wanted, ever dreamed for...

Truly our talks in person will be even more special because I'll be able to hold your hand as we walk, or kiss your cheek when we laugh, hold you closely if you're tired...yes the romantic in me is still very alive and kicking and waiting through every second of being away from you

But yes, things this wonderful, centered in the grace of our beautiful loving Father, are so bound to continue

I look foward to having these amazing chats with you tomorrow, next week, next year, next decade...well, for forever

I love you!!

Forever Yours

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With the touch of your hand, the sound of your voice..

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Dear Beautiful,

I adore you

More then that..

I love you!

I see in you everything I care for -- everything I want to love for the rest of my life

It's so easy to see, really

Did you know that the sound of your voice makes my heart peaceful and so very happy at the same time?

Thinking about the touch of your hand, as it holds mine, springs both butterflies and comfort through my entire chest

These things about you make me realize that its beyond just something temporary

Yes darling, I am yours for forever

I can easily see how much God does love you -- to create something so beautiful of heart, so loving, truly He has His hand on your life

His joy, His love, they shine from you, from every bit of you

From that you light up my life, completely, and you do it with such grace and humbleness

Yes, I feel so completely blessed to have you as mine

I love you my darling, and no matter what ever happens

I will love and care for you for the rest of your life

This I'm sure of

:]

Forever Yours

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Love

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Dear Beautiful,

There's absolutely no other words that can describe it

Yes, the thought of you running through my head the entire day made me happy

A smile seemingly never left my lips, there was small things about every place I was, that sent me off on a day dream thinking about you, and knowing your deep, deep care for me allowed me to be so at peace about everything..

I can't say it enough -- you are the most special person in my life, ever! I love you with my whole heart

There's something about your note last night that put words onto paper that no one else could have, or ever has expressed to me

My heart was literally overwhelmed, but I mean that in a very very good way

Reading how much love you have for me made my eyes water, and my cheeks clinch tightly together..I clutched my chest -- honestly, I couldn't stop that feeling inside that was filled with such utter and compete love for you -- and I certainly didn't want to

No one, has ever touched my heart like you have

No one has ever looked at me with the eyes that you look at me with

No one has ever spoken to me with such loving words as you do

You're my first -- truly, my last -- my everything

So my darling, know that you've made every dream of mine come true

Yes, I am going to ask you to marry me someday

And hopefully, if you say yes, I'm going to love you for the rest of my life

Forever Yours

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For this road that we are walking on..

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Dear Beautiful,

So here are the trials..

My goodness, I can hear the storm outside my window right now and realize that you and I are in the midst of our own

But just like every true storm, the sun comes out in the end

Truly, by God's strength we'll be able to make it -- just like every other storm we could ever face

Know that I love you so very much my darling...and no matter what I'm going to do my best to be the one to hold you every time you're sad..

Even though this is all so very hard, the love and the care that we have goes past and beyond the hardships that try to pull us apart

Yes, what we have is far too beautiful to be torn away by anything, ever

Know that even know the road we're walking on right now now is hard, and painful..

At least, we're walking on it together -- And soon enough, you and I will be back in the beautiful sunshine -- with no more storms to face

I love you!

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You are so beautiful..

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Dear Beautiful,

Words can't express your love and your absolutely amazing heart

I just can't understand how this jersey boy got so lucky to be loved by someone who is just so beautiful as you are, in every way

When storms like this come, you weather them in such a lovely manner that I sit here, amazed, at how wonderfully God has made you

Truly He's gifted you such a loving and caring heart, such a strong faith, a vision to serve His kingdom for your life, and a gift at giving me the biggest smile I could ever have..

I love you, I know I'll always love you

For the times when I can hug you, when I can kiss your lips and tell you everything is going to be ok, when I can take you places fun and bring out that beautiful smile on your face, when I can show you something beautiful and hear your love and adoration for the works of our Creator's hand, when I can be the last person you say goodnight to, and the first to see in the morning, when I can be more then just a husband, but truly a dad to someone named Addison, and Lilly -- All these things I desire with my whole heart

By God's hands, we're going to make it there

I promise

I love you!! And I'm never going to stop telling you that...

Forever Yours

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Of Sunsets and Adorable Green Eyes..

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Dear Beautiful,

As I drove today, with my windows down, and the warm breeze fading across my cheek, I thought of you

I thought of how nothing compares to how much I could get lost in your adorable green eyes -- perfectly happy

I wish you would have been there with me, as I always do, really..

To sit and watch the purple sunset, feel the breeze in your hair, be there side by side with me

In a way you were, because I was thinking about you

Well, more then thinking about you, I was already off and away from that New Jersey road and somewhere sitting closely to you

You mean so much to me

That sunset, as beautiful as it was, does not compare to the beauty I see in you

My own heart has fallen completely in love with yours -- truly, you are beautiful in every way

Darling, I miss you, and I know that soon enough --

I'll be able to watch those sunsets with you there next to me

And truly, I look forward to that with my whole heart

Forever Yours

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Closer..

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Dear Beautiful,

I've gotten so close to you over this past month

Yes, its been one month since that amazingly beautiful day in my life when the girl of my dreams truly became mine

One month since that day the girl God had known would be so wonderful to me, would finally place her hand into mine

It's so just special to me darling

Everything about you makes my heart so joyful


The closer I get to you, the more I wanna be there with you

Truly be the one to hold you if some dog or cat close to your heart died

Or the one to give you a kiss to calm your nerves through a storm

Or the one to take you to a field of dandelions to bring the biggest smile to your face

The closer I get to you, the more things come to mind that I want to do for you..

To care for you

You are so very beautiful to me my darling

I know -- for certain -- I want to be the one getting closer to you, caring for you..for the rest of your life

Forever Yours

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I do, baby..with all my heart

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Dear Beautiful,

I thought you should know, and somehow tonight, it worked out that I could tell you

Just three words

My whole heart

You know my deepest desire is to tell you that for the rest of your life

I know its only words

But when I told you them, every bit of me was reaching out towards you

When I see your smile, my whole day just brightens

Something like when the sunrise gives its first crest of light in a dark sky

You, my darling, light up my life

I'm so blown away at how special you are

I do, baby, I do I do I do, love ... with all my heart

So much so, that someday, I plan to be saying "I do" to you, in a much more special circumstance

Truly, I'd love that

Yet for now, it's one more goodnight without you here

But soon, I'll be looking into your eyes and telling you goodnight, plus so much more

Heart, to heart...

Forever Yours

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You words are so beautifully telling..

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Dear Beautiful,

Know that with every time you speak to me -- with your every breath, and every word, I can feel how much you care

From 1097 miles away I know that even in that you find ways to touch my heart

Well, I say touch -- it's more like you make my heart oh so very happy in every way

I know now that for the rest of my life, I'll truly know what love is like

It's not something I can pierce my eyes into from something in my past and see that its something I'd had before, and lost

No, you are the first girl in my life that I can truly realize how deeply in, coffee, I am with

Your words are so telling

They make my heart jump and sing at the same time

And that means more to me then anything

I'm in prayer for you always, my darling

I know God's taking such good care of you even if I can't be there to, and that's special to me

For when I do see you again, and when finally we are able to spend real time together

Those beautiful words of yours will always be at my heart

And my care for you will always be there -- always

Forever Yours

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You are...

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Dear Beautiful,

You are so very very sweet, so very very beautiful...

I wanted to tell you tonight a million times, that I love..

And I do

Its more then just words, more then just feelings written across a page

My every fiber of my whole being wants to be near you

To care for you for the rest of your life, to talk to you, to laugh with you, to snuggle up close to you and keep you warm...

Your name -- every time I see it, or hear it, it draws a smile across my face

That's because any thought of you just makes me so happy

Darling I adore you, so, so very much..

My whole heart is there with you in Missouri -- even if the rest of me is still distant

I miss you sweetie..you are so very special to me

I can't wait to see you

:]

Forever Yours

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So Loving

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Dear Beautiful,

You are always so loving

So compassionate and gentle in every single word, every single action..

I noticed it for the first time the day I started talking to you

I knew at that moment it was something completely special and something I had truly never encountered before

I realized its directing towards me the second you gave me that handmade book

When the gaze of my eyes gently fell on each picture, each word

I could tell how much love you had put into that

And you made it for me?

How could I be lucky, so blessed?

I couldn't help but ask myself that a million times..

When I do think about you, which is pretty much all the time, I can't help but realize that I've met the most beautiful girl I could ever meet, in my entire life

And yes, looks wise, you're so absolutely the most beautiful girl in the whole world, it's true!

Yet it goes beyond just that -- your heart is so big, so loving, so caring and attentive

Because I see all that in you, it just makes me want to care for you even more

Darling, know that I'm yours, from now till forever if you'll have me

And if could have the chance, to care for someone as loving and special as you are, for the rest of my life, it would be the greatest joy I could ever have..

Forever Yours

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Speechless

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Dear Beautiful,

I'm speechless

Utterally and completely tongue tied at how special you are

Sometimes I wonder at my own words when I talk to you

I wonder at how they're just not enough sometimes

I know there's three of them I'm aching to tell you

For you and I they'll mean so so much more too


Know, if I'm ever unable to get words out because I've lost myself in your beautiful green eyes

Or if my words seem fumbled and confused because every word I know doesn't come close to telling you how special you are to me

That truly you've taken over my whole heart

I'd rather be speechless at how you are mine, and at how you're going to be for all my life

Then be able to say a million words yet never any of them to you

I miss you darling, so so much

:]

Forever Yours

Can I just say, "You're My Everything"?

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Dear Beautiful

I'm so amazed at how lucky I am

I'm so amazed at how much I want to be with you

Every minute, every day

Perhaps it's because you're the sweetest, most caring, most beautiful girl I've ever met

I'm so blessed to be able to call you mine!

Really!

I tell everyone now that dreams really do come true

It's not some silly message, or some ridiculous idea or marketing ploy, no..the sweetest most beautiful dream I could ever dream has come true right before my eyes

Should someone pinch me?

Am I dreaming?

If so I hope I'll never wake up, never be away from your sweet voice that I so adore, never part from the knowledge that I'm going to have you back in my arms so soon, never, ever

Yes, you are my everything darling

I am so humbled that God should put in my life someone so very special and close to His heart as you are

I miss you dearly, and I'm counting down every minute till I can look deeply into your beautiful green eyes and tell you how much I love .....

Forever Yours

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