Just a breath

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Dear Beautiful,

Do you know how cute you are as you start to fall asleep?

Snugging close to you, and hearing your breathing grow longer, and softer, as you fall asleep, is something that even further endeared you to my heart

Even as you sleep...you are something so perfect to me

My heart aches to have only one of those moments back when you were in my arms, resting..

The rest of the world could have been timeless in those moments

We had nowhere to go, no one to see, just those soft still moments to spend together

It seems as if every second I spent with you is so precious to me now....now that you're gone

I just want you back...

I just want to hear you speak my name into my ear -- in that loving way that touches my heart like nothing ever had before

It feels cold here now...the warmth of your love being so far away

I know the day is coming when I can cradle you in my arms every night -- catering to every need of your heart

Wishing you goodnights and goodmornings...never ever forgetting how special they are, because I know how much I miss them when you're gone...

Hasten the day a plane takes off to bring us together again

I know I'll be counting down every moment until then...

I miss you

and I love you so much

Forever Yours

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If this moment could sing..

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Dear Beautiful,

You are on my mind yet again

As always when those soft blurred images of your smiling face cross my memory, I find my own smile being drawn across my lips

Every day that image seems to get more blurred as our time spent together drifts further back into the processes of my memory

I just don't want to lose that image of you I hold so preciously

I don't want our time apart to extend so far that my recollection of your eyes looking into mine becomes indistinguishable from the rest of my thoughts

Do you know that beyond everything else I've ever known, your smile is the one thing that brings me the greatest joy?

It's true

I feel as if the moments I think of your smile could voice themselves in some song -- that their sonnet would be the most overwhelmingly beautiful sound to ever be heard

Like the sun pushing away the low, dark rain clouds to illuminate every part of one's vision

I guess this is all part of being completely in love

It's certainly something I'd never ever want to lose...nothing could be better then this love

I just miss you so much...

You have penetrated the deepest depths of my heart -- and it's there I want to keep you forever

I love you so much darling...and it makes me so happy to know how much you love me too

:]

Forever Yours

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How the lonely stars sparkle

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Dear Beautiful,

The quiet of a night spent alone can be so beautiful and yet so sad

The heavens look so lonely tonight, dotted by the shimmering glimmer of the moon and the tiny sparkles of the stars

Until now, I had never known the meaning of a perfectly blissful night

To have felt you snuggle up close to me -- feeling the warmth of your kiss upon my lips

To have spent seconds seeming like hours staring into your sparkling green eyes... that no set of stars could ever compare to

To pull your hand into mine and place my thumb securely into your palm -- watching you smile at me

This absence from your side is tearing me apart

I can can feel my heart burning away inside my chest--this fire that steals away bits and pieces of me until I can be made whole again

I'm sorry for being so wordy about how I feel...

I can't explain the depth of how much it hurts until I'm alone at night

When that time of the night comes along when couples rest together at night, their hearts and bodies united with just one another, and as I sit here alone...I just long for that moment when you and I won't have to leave one another again

I long for that moment when no more planes will fly away into the deep blue sky taking one of us away from the other

I long for that moment when I'll return home to you, to hold you and tell you how much I love you

Until then, my heart will remain shattered

..barely holding itself together with every memory we have together

I love you so very much my darling

Tonight, as always..I'm holding you closely in my thoughts

Forever Yours

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Without you here, it's harder to breathe

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Dear Beautiful,

I miss you

It's simple, true -- beyond a doubt heartfelt

Knowing your presence in my life was the catalyst to such amazing joy, in knowing what life should be like...with you...

You and me, together

I have found an emptiness on returning home, a dull joylessness without your smile to brighten my life

I've been asking God to continue to give me the strength to pursue my dreams -- to make purposeful this time away from your side

For, your side is where I need to be

There's no sense in hiding that desire in my heart anymore

Perhaps when we first met -- the time we spent in watching and waiting with one another, hoping for the other to let it slip about how much they cared

Now though..you know my heart

You know I am continually thinking about the day I can propose to you

Get married to you

Grow old with you

For, you are so completely lovely to me

There was not one moment when I was with you that I thought otherwise

Now as I am away from you, I can feel my chest tightening every time I think about being next to you again

I long for it -- I wait for it

I will hold you closely in my thoughts and prayers until the day I can hold you in my arms again

I love you so very much darling

I promise you I always will

Forever Yours

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Missing you so...

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Dear Beautiful,

I sure do love seeing you at nights

Seeing the slight, beautiful curves of your smile as you smile at something we talk about

Watching your beautiful eyes, and imagining them looking deep into mine

I miss you so, very much...

Having you away from me, so far takes its toll daily

I want to be there with you to rub your shoulders when you're stressed, to give a kiss to your neck to see your cute smile in person...

I want to be able to go on drives with you, to hold your hand, to do our bible study while watching the sun glide gently down the sky

I know I've said how much I miss you so many times already, and how truly it is embedded in my heart

I know these feelings won't dissipate until I have you again in my arms again

Know that you truly are always on my mind..

You are the purpose of my prayers as I walk to and fro from place to place

You are my dreams, both asleep and awake

You are my sunshine, my sunset, my beauty in everything

Just know..

I love you, darling

I always always will

:]

Forever Yours

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November Twenty

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Dear Beautiful,

My thoughts being set on you seem to be a permanent thing now..

Ever since November 20, 2007, my heart, my mind, my soul, all seemed to have found life in the life of another, in you...

Every second that passes brings me closer to you

Every second since that chilly night in November

Without realizing it then, November 20 started a huge countdown in my life

A countdown that will outlast week and weekend visits between Missouri, Virginia, and New Jersey

A countdown that will outlast daily phone calls, love letters, and packages sent back and forth

A countdown that will outlast the beauty of a silver ring on your finger, the pictures taken of you and I, so very much in love and attached to one another

This countdown will keep ticking, keep winding down, until one very special moment

Its final seconds of its existence will lie in the moment when my eyes watch you, dressed in the most beautiful white gown, as you walk towards me down that aisle

What a beautiful end to that countdown we will have...

I treasure each and every one of these moments darling, even though we are so far away

I know so deeply down in my heart that every second I live through, brings me one second closer to the day when I take your hand in mine, in front of our closest friends and family, and kiss your lips...not just as my girlfriend, but as my most beautiful and lovely wife

I treasure these moments, sweetheart

I will treasure ever moment from November 20, till the end of my life

Why?

Because your smile permeates my life now

And it forever will

I couldn't be happier

:]

I love you so very, very much

Forever Yours

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Come spend a life with me..

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Dear Beautiful,

Can you feel my love across the miles?

I want you to feel every inch of it..every second

I want you to be able to turn your head from the whirlwind of your day and find my love waiting...

Always patient

Always kind

Never boastful

Never proud

Never angry

Always protecting

Always trusting

Always preserving

Always hoping

Hope..my love seems to rest on that as much as anything else

Hope for the tomorrow when I have you back in my arms

Hope for the days when I can see the world with my love by my side


Will you come spend your life with me?

Will you trust yourself to the love in my embrace every night, while the rest of the world falls asleep?

Will you lay on the grass with me and look up at the clouds, finding your peace by my side?


I want to be with you with every bit of my being, darling

Know that the movie reel for rest of my life has already been played before my eyes

And as I watch our lives plan out, hand in hand

I understand how truly beautiful a life with you will always be

I love you, I always will

:]

Forever Yours

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